Baby M Number 2: 38 weeks

38 weeks – another new week to put under my belt!  The past week did not come without it’s surprises though – but more to come.

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Top: Gap maternity; Skirt: Lularoe; Necklace: Premier Designs

How far along? 38 weeks

Baby size: A spaghetti squash, and about 19-20 inches in length and nearly 7 lbs

Weight gain: With the slew of appointments I ended up having, I gained 2 lbs, lost two lbs, gained a few more.  Whatever – total weight gain as of today (according to the nurse) is 12 lbs.  Thanks, GD.

Workouts: I went to pre-natal yoga last week and that was really nice.  If I’m still cranking on Wednesday, I might go again.

Maternity Clothes: Definitely.

Stretch Marks: None

Sleep: I really can’t complain about my sleeping, especially now that we have our new SleepNumber mattress.  Yes, amazing.

Gender: Baby girl

Movement: All the time

Labor signs: So the answer to last week’s question of progression is: YES! I’m sitting at 3 cm, 80% and -1 station.  Yay! On Thursday of last week, my kidneys started hurting so we ran some tests.  Most are within normal range for people with my kidney disease, but one is elevated that isn’t normal, so we’re retesting on Wednesday.  If that comes back the same/decreased, I’ll keep on!

What I miss: In the very home stretch – so just pushing on!

Nursery/Other prep: Done.  I made a fun little washi initial piece for her wall (and for T’s too) and put up the triangles randomly.

Belly button, in or out: Flat, with a little, itty bitty bit poking out.

Wedding rings, on or off: On

Mood: It’s been hard, but the weather last week really was a nice break.  I swear I have reverse seasonal depression – give me 90 degree days and I’m more irritable than anything, and even borderline depressed.  But give me 60’s/70’s, I’m a happy camper!

Best moment this week: Knowing that my kidneys are doing really well.  And spending what little time we have left as the three of us.

Looking forward to: I’m ready to meet her.  I’m ready to see my big girl with our little girl.  I’m ready for baby snuggles.  And candy (can I say that – haha).

Baby M Number 2: 36 weeks

36 weeks. This time with T I was day-to-day, and this time I’m week to week.  It’s such a different experience and I’m pretty excited to get to experience it (although, being active at 36 weeks is a whole different ball game – and add nesting into it – shew!  I’m worn out most of the time).  This time, I’m coming into the office daily (and fielding the: you’re still here?? questions), doing laundry, running errands… It’s so different.

Top: Gap; Skirt: Lularoe; Necklace: a birthday gift a few years ago from my grandmother

Top: Gap; Skirt: Lularoe; Necklace: a birthday gift a few years ago from my grandmother

 

How far along? 36 weeks

Baby size: A papaya, and about 18-19 inches in length and nearly 6 lbs

Weight gain: Holding steady at the same weight since the GD diagnosis.

Workouts: Walking occasionally, but mostly just doing normal activities and putting my swelling feet up as much as possible

Maternity Clothes: Definitely.

Stretch Marks: None

Sleep: Still pretty good!  I’m up about 3-4 times but I seriously zombie walk to/from the bathroom.

Gender: Sweet baby girl

Movement: All the time

Labor signs: Daily BH, becoming more regular.  Some of which lately have been more crampy, but still not what they talked to me about a couple of weeks ago.

What I miss: It’s all the same.  But I’m trying to just go with it – I have a month left.

Symptoms: The BH and this weird pain/sensation sometimes when I walk.  She’s bumping up against some nerve or something which almost makes my leg give out sometimes when I’m walking.  And when it happens, it feels like the feeling you get when your funny bone is hit.  Last night it started happening on our walk, but I just kept on walking and she moved.  I’m sure it’s a sight to see – me walking down the hall and my leg buckles.  Yes, I hold on tightly when walking down any stairs, in case you’re wondering 😉

In addition to my weight being steady, so are my BP as well as my kidney function (I can’t say that with 100% certainty, but the dipsticks have shown no change in the 8 weeks I’ve been going – throughout the last trimester with T it steadily rose).

Nursery/Other prep: I bought some crates from Target yesterday to put toys and things in for her closet.  I also brought up all of the bottles and my pump to get those ready to go.  However, this time, I’m going to try this cool new system, the Kiinde, to see if it reduces the amount of washing that we have to do.  I also will receive my insurance provided pump tomorrow since I wore my Medela out with T (it will work, but I don’t think it’ll last another year+ of multiple times a day of pumping).

Belly button, in or out: Flat, with a little, itty bitty bit poking out.

Wedding rings, on or off: On

Mood: Definitely more irritable.

Best moment this week: Hearing that there are no plans for an induction as long as my BP and kidneys stay stable.  And then, these:

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I’m trying to capture all of these little moments of just me and my only baby girl before we meet our new baby girl.

Father’s Day was also fun – S loved his hat and the platter that T and I made for him (this is the before firing look).

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And of course the 4th year of doing the DAD photos.

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Looking forward to: The 4th! And hitting full term.  I never thought I’d ever be able to say that (I guess it’s still possible that I won’t hit it since she could decide to come on her own before then).  But I have a feeling that as long as I can handle it, she’ll stay put.

Baby M Number 2: 35 weeks

I’m here!  I made it!!  35 weeks!!!  This is big in my world with the unknown of how my kidneys will take a pregnancy!  We had a pre-term labor scare on Wednesday: I had contractions about 10-12 minutes apart for a few hours and since I wasn’t to the 37 week mark, I put in a call.  They had me come in to get monitored and make sure there was no progression.  No progression and baby girl took the contractions like a champ.  So I went home, rested for the rest of the night.  They’re still happening, and I’m guessing they will for the rest of the pregnancy.  But no big deal now that I know they’re not really doing anything.

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Top: JoJo Maman Bebe

 

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Well, that sticks out quite a bit now, doesn’t it??

 

How far along? 35 weeks

Baby size: A bunch of carrots, and about 18-19 inches in length and 5 lbs

Weight gain: Holding steady at the same weight since the GD diagnosis.

Workouts: Just walking, but even that is less and less with the heat that’s started to appear

Maternity Clothes: Definitely.

Stretch Marks: None

Sleep: It takes forever to get to sleep.  And I’m up a few times.  It’s fine – all prep 🙂

Gender: Sweet baby girl

Movement: All the time

Labor signs: Daily BH, becoming more regular, but still not doing anything.  Some are also crampy.

What I miss: Still carbs.  Not too much longer!

Symptoms: The BH, and restless leg – OH the restless leg.  That’s been going on for a long time and I’m over it.  Not a symptom, but our hospital bags are packed (yeah – Wednesday made me realize I should probably get on that).

Nursery: I made one of the two pack and play sheets, with the rest of the fabric hanging out in my office to make them.  Maybe this weekend.

Belly button, in or out: Flat, with a little, itty bitty bit poking out.

Wedding rings, on or off: On

Mood: Definitely more irritable.

Best moment this week: I have two: 1. Last Sunday at the Renaissance Festival. It’s usually our Father’s Day tradition but the forecast is for 90 and that wouldn’t be fun for anyone.  We let T pick out a princess dress and the workers there were so wonderful with her.  We let her get a Merida bow and had her hair braided like Elsa (complete with glitter, of course).  She was so darn cute.

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2. Spending Monday night with T.  It was so fun – after we dropped S off at home she and I met up with a friend for a paint night and dinner.  She did amazing and it was so fun to spend some one-on-one time with her before she becomes a big sister!

We also ordered her big sister gift, and I’ve decided on gifts for the nurses.

Looking forward to: Father’s Day!  I’m excited to have T give S his gifts!  And a weekend that I wasn’t sure I was going to have the ability to be up and around is always welcome 🙂

Baby M Number 2: 34 Weeks

Another week down, another week closer to meeting baby girl!  My appointment last week was fantastic, so I have another week until my next appointment.  I’m feeling good and excited that we’ll make it to 35 (unless she has a mind of her own, which is totally possible!).  Once I get to 35 weeks then I start the weekly appointments.  I’m still thinking July 4th will be go time, but we’ll see – I would actually love our two girls to have birthdays exactly 6 months apart!

Last week I posted some photos that S took during our maternity shoot, and we received our sneak peek last night.  I can’t wait to see more – Danielle with Danielle Good Photography is so talented (and, I’m so lucky to be able to call her my friend).

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Gosh I just love what I’ve seen so far. She captured exactly what I was hoping for!

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Top: Lularoe. Cami: StitchFix. Leggings: Lularoe. Necklace: Stressless Necklace

How far along? 34 weeks

Baby size: A savoy cabbage, and about 17-19 inches in length and 4.5 lbs

Weight gain: Haven’t gained anything for about two months.

Workouts: Just walking.

Maternity Clothes: Definitely.

Stretch Marks: None

Sleep: As the summer gets into full swing, it’s harder for me to sleep, but that’s because I don’t like to sleep when it’s hot around me.  But I’m not too exhausted, so I’m getting some good rest in there.

Gender: Sweet baby girl

Movement: All the time – more rolls than anything.  The other morning T was laying with her head on my stomach and she got kicked a few times – it begins already 😉

Labor signs: Daily BH.  But still nothing timeable.

What I miss: Still carbs.  Not too much longer!

Symptoms: My feet have started minorly swelling, but elevation fixes that and my OB isn’t concerned.  Hooray for a summer pregnancy 🙂

Nursery: Pretty much complete.  I whipped up some curtain tiebacks last week and have those up.  I want to make a couple of pillows for decor, but it’s not high on my priority list.  Since she’ll be in our room for the first couple of weeks or so, I bought some fabric to make pack and play sheets since we only have one.  That fabric is washed and ready to go, just need to cut and sew!  The only other major thing that needs to happen is getting the bottles out and sterilized, not to mention finding a place to put them.  I also ordered my free pump (thanks United Healthcare!) so that will be ordered on the 25th.

Belly button, in or out: Flat, with a little, itty bitty bit poking out.  Will I go outtie this time??

Wedding rings, on or off: On

Mood: Since it’s getting a little harder to move around, I’ve been more irritable (oh yeah, and hotter, but still raining).  I realized earlier this week that I don’t know what being active this far along in a pregnancy feels like since I was on bedrest starting at 32 weeks with T.

Best moment this week: Having S come back.  I don’t like it when he’s gone.  And the fact that I’m not on bedrest!!

Looking forward to: A fun weekend of friends!  T has a birthday party on Saturday, then an adult party on Saturday night followed by an adult/kid party on Sunday.  I like busy, but not stressfully busy, weekends!

 

Baby M Number 2: 33 weeks

One more week down.  I can’t shake the ticking time bomb feeling, and I don’t think my OBs can either.  My BP has been rising and so I go back today instead of next week for another appointment.  I’m sitting here with essential oils and spa music in an attempt to stay calm.  No time for bed rest with a very active 3 year old 🙂

First things first, this past weekend we had maternity family photos taken.  I saw a photoshoot on Pinterest that I fell in love with, so we did our best to find a scene that was similar.  Luckily (I say that – but with it bring it’s own unique set of challenges) this spring has been so rainy it was pretty easy to find – gorgeous tall grasses and green, green trees.  Just up the street from us was a lot that is up for auction so we went and took some photos.  I don’t have the official ones yet, but S snapped a couple, and I can’t wait to see them!!

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I also finished the nursery curtains this week!  They are everything I dreamed they would be!  After having them up for a few days I realize I need to make some tiebacks because I made the rod pockets a little tight, but that will be pretty easy I think.

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Pure excitement and pride on my face!

 

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There they are – in all of their glory!  And they do a fantastic job of blocking out light.  More nursery to come later – we’re still organizing and getting things ready and I don’t want to reveal it all until it’s ready for baby girl.

Ok, onto week 33.

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Top: Lularoe Irma blouse; Neckace: Premier Design

 

How far along? 33 weeks

Baby size: A head of cauliflower, and about 17-19 inches in length and 4 lbs

Weight gain: Haven’t gained anything for about a month and a half now.  But I know she’s growing.

Workouts: Just walking.

Maternity Clothes: Definitely.

Stretch Marks: None

Sleep: Still having a hard time falling asleep and I’m still getting up early.  But it’s ok – all preparation for what’s to come.

Gender: Sweet baby girl

Movement: All the time.  She keeps acting like she’s going to pop out of my side, so that’s pretty interesting 🙂  She also likes to move up and press on my lungs and it sort of takes my breath away.  Or maybe that’s the BH.  I don’t know.

Labor signs: Daily BH.  But still nothing timeable.

What I miss: Still carbs.  What I wouldn’t give for a big bowl of pasta followed by some ice cream. Or a donut.  It is National Donut Day and all.

Symptoms: Well, my BP has been steadily climbing (but still in normal range). It’s a little scary to think about bedrest with a very active 3 year old, but I have to remember that by this point with her, I had already been on bedrest for a week. I feel great, swelling is minimal (I have very slight swelling in my left foot in the evenings that’s alleviated by elevation – don’t worry, I’ll be mentioning it today), and my proteins are on par with where they were with T as well.

Nursery: Almost done!  Crib set up, curtains up, clothes washed and in drawers or on hangers, shelves installed in the closet.  Misc. junk that we hid in the closet has been relocated into the basement, just need to figure out how to store a few of T’s toys that we don’t want to get rid of yet (like this little dragon ball pit thing – I think that will be used again).  We went to Target yesterday to pick up some registry purchases (technically a registry, but mostly storage things – hangers, trashcans, laundry basket).  So those are all squared away now too.

Belly button, in or out: In, but flat

Wedding rings, on or off: On

Mood: I’ve been less likely to hold it in this week, but it’s been my way of letting stress out.  But most of the time, I feel calm.

Best moment this week: Having my family in town.  It’s been really nice to get some things done that take a whole lot longer with T running around.  Getting those curtains up was definitely my proudest moment in awhile.  I also got to watch my little girl rock Bible School.  I came in to meet them one afternoon and she was dancing and singing in the backseat.

Looking forward to: 33 week appointment in a few hours, and S coming home.  He went off to Finland on Monday for work, but I’m ready for him to be back with us.

Baby M Number 2: Week 28

Hello 3rd tri!!  I can’t believe there’s only a few weeks left (and I say few with a reason… more to come on that).  I feel like we just found out we were pregnant, but at the same time I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever.  I’m trying to enjoy it, as I’m pretty sure this will be our last (again, more to come).   Anyway…

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Top and pants: Motherhood Maternity; Necklace: Premier Design

How far along? 28 weeks
Baby size: A coconut! About 16 inches in length, and about two to two and a half pounds in weight!
Weight gain: Up about 12-13 lbs from my first appointment.
Workouts: Walking more
Maternity Clothes: Definitely.
Stretch Marks: Nothing.  But I have a ton of little red dots all over my stomach.  Just a fun family trait
Sleep: Pretty good!  I know I turn from side to side quite a few times during the night, but I’m not getting up (usually) to go to the bathroom or anything.
Gender: Sweet baby girl
Movement: Girl doesn’t stop from about 5:30 am until after dinner.  But I’m enjoying it.  Although, couple that with her sister’s motor mouth and something’s always moving in our house 😉
Food cravings: Still on the sweet stuff. But now, I have a fun diagnosis of gestational diabetes (very easily controlled with diet – which I needed to be doing anyway)
Aversions: None
Labor signs: Braxton Hicks have been picking up but not regular at all usually.
What I miss: Nothing really.
Symptoms: Where do I begin.  Although, I don’t know if these are actually symptoms?  Anyway, here goes.

At about 32 weeks pregnant with T, I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia.  Well, it turns out that I actually have an underlying kidney disease that progresses like pre-eclampsia in pregnancy.  IgA Nephropathy to be exact (suspected… at this point I’m very early stage and low risk to progress.  If progression occurs we’ll biopsy to make sure).  We found it about a year after T was born when I tried to get a supplemental life insurance policy.  My nephrologist gave us the green light to try for a second baby, knowing that things will not be normal during a pregnancy.  So my morning sickness ended around 22-24 weeks, I had 3-4 weeks of enjoying the pregnancy (we even went to Las Vegas for a quick “babymoon” if you will) before the typical 3rd tri testing started and my additional testing.  Lab work has started coming in and my kidneys are hanging in there, but there’s definitely a big difference between what was going on at 8 weeks and now.  While I’m not considered pre-eclamptic yet (my BP is fantastic as far as I know), I’m still being cautious about when it could turn that way.  Other than high protein, I don’t have any other symptoms… no swelling, normal BP, no headaches, no flashers or floaters in my vision (more than normal… I have a large number of floaters), or flank pain.  So, I’m taking mini goals.  First goal: Carry this baby through May.  Ultimate goal: 35 weeks. That’s June 20.  Everyone chant with me… you’ve got this kidneys!  Give that baby girl time to grow!

Nursery: Nursery is painted!  I bought a crib skirt from my awesome friend Rachel with ModFox, and it will be custom with fabric I chose.  I’m going to attempt to make curtains when the fabric comes in, as well as a crib sheet.  If I’m put on bedrest this time, I’ll have time to do it.  Here’s the fabric scheme I’m putting together to go with the artwork I bought from Sarah Jane Studios.

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Dot fabric – crib skirt. Herringbone (to be paired also with a solid coral for the bottom) – curtain. Yellow ikat – crib sheet.

Belly button, in or out: In, but pretty flat.
Wedding rings, on or off: On
Mood: This week has been hard with all of my test results coming back.
Best moment this week: The photo S took of T and I last night (see below).  He was watching the draft and she and I were working on a sticker activity book.  While I see flaws in the photo of myself, I’m forcing myself to focus on this sweet image of me and my first baby girl.
Looking forward to: A nice warm weekend.  We have a yard sale, a church event, and a birthday party for T to attend.  And my 28 week appointment on Tuesday – I’m ready to discuss a game plan with my OB!

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A new season…

Today marks the beginning of the Lenten season – a time for reflection and meditation.  Life has been very busy lately, as life tends to get with a full time job and a 3 year old (yes, she’s now 3.  Time has flown).  And, add this in the mix, and it’s been even more challenging:

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We’re very exciting for all of the new changes coming to us in the next 4.5-5 months, but with that comes some re-evaluating of everything – the amount of items we have, the amount of money we spend, etc.

So with Lent, I’ve decided to do a few things.  One is the traditional giving something up.  For me, that’s complaining.  It’s a nasty cycle to be in, where you find fault in everything and blessings rarely.  So I’m using this verse as my meditation for the next 40 days.

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It’s not going to be easy.  But I want to make this change – for my friends, my daughter, husband, and myself.

It goes beyond that too.  It goes to getting rid of the excess in our lives.  So I’m also going to embark on the 40 bags in 40 days challenge.  I’ve been wanting to do it for years, and this time I’m setting myself up for success!  I’m going to use the easy printable found over at White House Black Shutters (if you’re not starting today, she provides a link at the bottom for a printable without dates).

I feel good, and a 40 day challenge is a great place to start.  I think the biggest part of the challenge will be not complaining while going through my 40 bags 🙂

 

Wordless Wednesday: Cotton Candy

Tori attended her first birthday party for a friend from school over the weekend.  It was a balls, balloons and bubbles theme, and it was a gorgeous Colorado fall afternoon.  Her friend’s mom and dad had a cotton candy machine, and she got her first taste.  I, of course, had to capture it.

In summary: April 2013

I just can’t believe it.

April came and went, just like the weekly snowstorms we had.  Yes, that’s right.  Snow.  In April.  Not something I thought I’d be saying.

No, these aren’t from the same storm, but rather the three different snow storms we had.  April 9, April 16, April 23.  Totaling 47.6 inches.  FOR THE MONTH.  Whoa.
One of the big things we did this month was redo our dining room, and I worked on a few other decor things I’ve had on my mind to do for awhile.  Maybe I’ll get to a post on those.  Or I won’t.  We’ll see 🙂

By the way  – can you believe we scored that buffet table from an antique store for $79?   Or that it came in not long before we got there?  It was meant to be.  Same with the chairs (although, they cost a bit more).  It opens up the room so much and gives me a place to stash things.  Also, ignore the mess on the table – I was too excited to share with friends and didn’t care about the mess.
April also was full of fun with T.  From her meeting her shadow (which she did not like), to a new babydoll, to visits with friends, a party at school and exploring new things (which includes mom’s phone, thus the blurry picture in the collage), it was a great month for her.  And while I loved my baby, I do have to say that toddler T is so much fun.  

I’m really looking forward to all of the new, fun things that May, I know, will bring.

People pleaser, party of 1.

So when I started this blog (ok, well, the old blog, which is now this new blog…),  I said how much of a list person I am.  I like seeing things crossed off, marked as done!  I tried the 101/1001, which was the original driving force behind starting the blog.  I did SO well at the beginning.  Then things happened and my goals started looking so far away, and then I gave up.  Wow… that was hard to put out there… I gave up.

But, yeah.  That’s what I did.
I did some cool things (hello… there’s a little me running around now!), but I didn’t do all of them.  And, somewhere along the lines, I lost my passion for this blog.  There’s three years of history now that I’ve documented (sometimes more frequently than others). And I’ve hit many writers blocks.  And you know the cause?
I WAS WRITING THIS BLOG FOR OTHER PEOPLE.
It’s why I stopped entering in photo contests a few years ago – I wasn’t doing it for the right reason.  It was like I was blogging in hopes of becoming popular or something.  I wasn’t the popular kid in school, and so writing a blog that generated tons of followers would surely make up for that, right?
What I’ve learned since having Tori around is that life’s too short to care about things like that.  I don’t want to pass my past insecurities and people-pleasing on to her.  I want her to be strong.  Confident.  Beautiful.  A force to be reckoned with, while being as sweet as honey.  I want her to be able to know that she doesn’t need anyone other than herself (ok, and her momma).  
And the sad thing?  I missed documenting the really cool, and scary parts, of my pregnancy that I would love to be able to look back on now.  I missed documenting fun trips and leaving notes of things we did and people and places we saw. It would make the yearly photo albums I’m so very slowly working on a lot easier to put together.  
I need to refocus, and bring the blog back to me.  It goes along with my blog redesign.  I want people (if they care to follow) to know me and my family.  I want people to know that there’s a human being behind this blog, and behind my business.  And, I want to make our years well documented.  
So here’s my list.  With one thing on it.
1. STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT OTHERS WANT TO READ, AND WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO WRITE ABOUT.

It may be boring, but that’s just it.  My life is boring.  I work all day.  I parent my 15 and a half month old daughter.  I love my husband.  I make some really fun and (what I think is) cool stuff.  And this ride, well, it’s mine.  And while I’d love people to join me, I understand if it may not be that entertaining.  But it’s real.  And it’s me.