So when I started this blog (ok, well, the old blog, which is now this new blog…), I said how much of a list person I am. I like seeing things crossed off, marked as done! I tried the 101/1001, which was the original driving force behind starting the blog. I did SO well at the beginning. Then things happened and my goals started looking so far away, and then I gave up. Wow… that was hard to put out there… I gave up.
People pleaser, party of 1.
April 30, 2013
But, yeah. That’s what I did.
I did some cool things (hello… there’s a little me running around now!), but I didn’t do all of them. And, somewhere along the lines, I lost my passion for this blog. There’s three years of history now that I’ve documented (sometimes more frequently than others). And I’ve hit many writers blocks. And you know the cause?
I WAS WRITING THIS BLOG FOR OTHER PEOPLE.
It’s why I stopped entering in photo contests a few years ago – I wasn’t doing it for the right reason. It was like I was blogging in hopes of becoming popular or something. I wasn’t the popular kid in school, and so writing a blog that generated tons of followers would surely make up for that, right?
What I’ve learned since having Tori around is that life’s too short to care about things like that. I don’t want to pass my past insecurities and people-pleasing on to her. I want her to be strong. Confident. Beautiful. A force to be reckoned with, while being as sweet as honey. I want her to be able to know that she doesn’t need anyone other than herself (ok, and her momma).
And the sad thing? I missed documenting the really cool, and scary parts, of my pregnancy that I would love to be able to look back on now. I missed documenting fun trips and leaving notes of things we did and people and places we saw. It would make the yearly photo albums I’m so very slowly working on a lot easier to put together.
I need to refocus, and bring the blog back to me. It goes along with my blog redesign. I want people (if they care to follow) to know me and my family. I want people to know that there’s a human being behind this blog, and behind my business. And, I want to make our years well documented.
So here’s my list. With one thing on it.
1. STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT OTHERS WANT TO READ, AND WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO WRITE ABOUT.
It may be boring, but that’s just it. My life is boring. I work all day. I parent my 15 and a half month old daughter. I love my husband. I make some really fun and (what I think is) cool stuff. And this ride, well, it’s mine. And while I’d love people to join me, I understand if it may not be that entertaining. But it’s real. And it’s me.