Today is S’s first day at his new job! And I have to admit, I’ve been a horrible wife in the verbal support department this weekend.
When S started his first job out here in CO, I threw him a surprise going away party, and sent him a letter that he would get the day he started classes. I may have even overnighted him cookies to have too. However, this time around, I was so self-absorbed I didn’t even express to him my excitement for his new beginning until he brought it to my attention yesterday.
In my defense, S was really sick yesterday, so I was super super busy: packed up about 5 boxes, threw away another trash bag full of stuff, cleaned and made dinner, while he relaxed to get ready for the week and I just spaced out. I missed the fact that doing all of those things still isn’t the same as saying: “Hey baby, I’m sooo excited for your new job starting tomorrow! You’re going to do amazing, and they’re so lucky to have you!!!” – even though I’ve been thinking that since he got the call that he was their choice.
I know it’s not that big of a deal, but I’ve always prided myself on being the one who says things when others don’t… and I failed. Add on to the fact that I overslept this morning, and still had to make dinner made us about 20 minutes late walking out the door. Luckily, we had no traffic this morning, so we made up time. I felt like a complete failure walking into my building this morning.
I really need to make a conscious effort to not let the little, non-important things bug me like they have been lately… I should’ve done something for him, instead of packing up a box that could’ve waited until tonight. I shouldn’t let my shortfalls at work (like taking 3 days to find an error) irritate me to the point that I’m not pleasant to be around.
Starting now, I’m going back to the wife and friend that S deserves… and I know I’m probably being a bit hard on myself, but I’ve noticed subtle differences that I don’t like.