Give up… or refocus?

I cannot do another day on that stupid elliptical.  Same music, same scenery… it’s getting old.  And I’ve only been doing this for how long now, 4 weeks?  I don’t understand how people can do this for years and years on end.  Will changing my playlist help?  Possibly… for a few days.

I wish I could run outside.  This will require two things:  1) A better knowledge of the area and 2) running shoes.  Oh, and 3) a watch.  If I can start running outside, then I’ll start the Couch to 5k program.  Problem here?  I don’t want to spend the money.

Before S and I got married, we sat down and discussed how we were going to handle finances.  We decided on having a joint account, with us each keeping separate accounts for our play money/gift money, and we get a set amount each paycheck of mine deposited in there.  Since our anniversary is coming up in a little less than two months (!!!!!!) I’ve been trying really hard to save money, spending only a little here or there.  So… new watch isn’t bad.  I’d really only have 3 requirements, so it should be cheap: 1) that jelly type material, 2) digital and 3) have a stopwatch.  It’s the shoes that are going to get me.

Since I broke my leg almost 3 years ago, it doesn’t feel good to run.  That amount of force on my leg is just really uncomfortable.  A woman I work with suggested The Boulder Running Company where I can actually get fitted for shoes that would be the best for me.  But this will require a good investment (at least $100), and I already spent that on my EasyTone shoes.  S says I can use our joint account, but we are saving for a house and I just can’t bring myself to spend the money (not to mention I also need summer clothes – I have about 5 work appropriate tops that would be comfortable in the 80-90 degree weather).  And my EasyTones have spoiled me – my New Balances that are sitting in the closet now feel like I’m walking on boards.

S mentioned last week when I started complaining about my workout routine that I should look into a personal trainer.  I did some searching around Denver, and they are $$$$$.  So I then thought about looking up here in Boulder, especially since I get a discount at the rec center near by for working here.  They offer a QuickStart program that gives me 30 minutes with a registered dietitian and 90 minutes with a personal trainer.  So I called and left a message to see if this is a good fit to really get me going.  Two hours later, I’m still waiting and am afraid to leave my desk.

I feel like I keep making excuses, and I guess I do.   I wish I had that motivation to get to the gym like so many others I know.  But I don’t get that endorphin rush during/at the end, and I don’t like sweating even though I know it’s necessary for progress.  I think a trainer is a good idea.  I just need that call back!


  1. Don’t give up! As enticing as it is, over the long run, not doing anything will make you feel worse.

    As for the watch situation, I found mine on It’s a website that only features one item at a time for only so long, but you can find some really great deals. And you may even find a pair of shoes, too! I’ve gotten into the habit of just keeping a window open for it on my computer and I check in periodically.

    Also, I’ve never been one to enjoy going to the gym. I can never seem to get the motivation to actually drive there, so I’ve resorted to working out at home. Some things I’ve used to help me in my workout ruts are Netflix (to try different workout videos) and, along with evening walks with the hubby and longer wogging (jogging and walking) on the weekends. Running doesn’t feel very good for me, either!

    If you ever need somebody to reach out to that’s in a similar situation, please don’t hesitate to e-mail me! It may just motivate me, too!

  2. You can do it, Jess! Get outside..walk a bit, then walk. That’s what I’s a helluva lot better than the gym. Or go swimming. I know you don’t want to get in a bathing suit, but buy a Nike one piece (or the like)..swimming is the best way to work out. YOU CAN DO IT!! We need to hold each other accountable.

  3. 1. I hear ya! I have tendonitis in my knees and cannot run (or do anything with impact) at all! Its even gotten to the point that I can barely do the elliptical for longer than 30 minutes without severe pain. Jenn’s right…swimming is great and something that is perfect for people with joint/bone problems.

    2.I like the netflix idea! we already have a membership…I’m going to have to try that out.

    3. I hate going to the gym. I hate getting sweaty, I hate being around sweaty people, I hate feeling tired, I hate giving up nap time! Even when I was going religiously for about a year, I hated every minute of it. I think its a total lie that if you do it long enough, you’ll come to enjoy it and feel bad if you miss a work out.

    4. I found this website to help with diet and food tracking…thought I’d share!

    5. On a side note, Jimmy and I are like the only couple I know that does a joint account for bills and such and two separate accounts for fun money. Everyone thinks we’re weird for doing it that way so its good to hear someone else does it, too! It works great for us.

  4. Don’t give up! I found after going to the gym for about a month that I had the same problem as you are having now. Instead of running outside (because I don’t get very far), I do Jillian Michaels workout videos either On Demand though cable or the one that I purchased.

    The DVD was about $15, and usually contains three different workouts. The workouts are about 30 minutes long but definetely give you a workout and mix cardio, strength and abs all in one workout. I love them and they really kick your butt!

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